Because life's like this

2010-10-16T09:47:00.000-07:00

is it fair? is anything in life fair?

2010-07-10T08:16:00.000-07:00

i always thought these thing were a mutual sort of thing.
why when im in pain, then im the selfish one, the one who only cares about his own feelings, who doesn't notice how blessed he is and is so freaking selfish. yet when i try to help and i desperately try to give everything, im the insensitive jerk.
i cant stand it i wanna run away.

i deserve some right to be happy too right?

2010-05-21T19:12:00.000-07:00

i guess it's true that you don't know what you've got till it's gone. It's been a crazy term omg crazy year so far. I've never felt so drained from school before ever, even if like i might not be very active like preparing for season or concerts but omg sch's has become painful.

It's really sad that school's just passing so fast. I guess no matter i dread it, how much i complain abt the system, abt how this is screwed and that is screwed, i still wanna hold on to everything now, like those beautiful memories and awesome friendships. It's really sad to think that they'd all be gone after we leave school into the world.

but till then, i guess we'd never know what we're got till it's gone.

till then, everything would just be a beautiful mess :S

i feel quite lost i still dun know what i'm gonna do with my life. haha.

2010-05-14T19:51:00.000-07:00

Today, is gonna be the day, that they're gonna throw it back to you
By now, you should have somehow, realised what you've got to do

2010-05-08T08:32:00.001-07:00

Dance concert was a blast, it was really good haha especially that solo robot dance can make ppl cry one too damn imba already.
Anyway got the sudden realisation that the arts are really forms of expression and to a large extent it really portrays the pain of this world. everywhere you go, people look so tired and sad of life and god knows, deep down inside, everyone is sad and lonely.
like i mean, what is this world revolving around? wealth? fame? good looks?

i guess it's really true that nothing worth having is easy to get, but i'm quite tired of trying and trying and not getting anywhere, and the only reason being that i wasn't and still aren't trying hard enough.
ok maybe it' just me being overly-contemplative but i want a break from life, just get me outta here ):
nostalgia sia.

2010-05-05T02:42:00.000-07:00

is seriously beginning to wonder what we are all going through this madness for.
haha it's an annual thing, figures.
But i have come to the realisation that singaporeans are really sad people man. Walk down the street and everyone's giving you this :/ or :O or -.- face.

and i'm really surprised by the number of things that happened in the past few months gosh who is enan anymore?

feeling freaking nostalgia now, keep thinking back to 'what if it was still last year'. i miss ip shizz

maybe one day it'd all be worth it

2010-05-02T17:35:00.001-07:00

Stop, drop and roll!
i really need to go out and study man LOL home is really not working :S
hai life's so sad hahaha
maybe one day we'll wake up and this would all just be a dream (:

2010-04-23T09:08:00.000-07:00

Today the last event was over, and in a few days we'd be stepping down already. I guess only God would know how the 29 of us survived this year. Guess we didn't do a good job, but i dun think anyone expected much out of us but gosh i'm just heck freaking glad we survived. I have no idea how but heck i'm glad.

it's been a very memorable learning experience ba i guess. maybe people still think i'm a loser, but at least i'm a very happy loser (: Life's been good and bad up till now and i'm really happy about my class and not so happy about not being able to understand some lessons, about the huge sum i owe the school :S HAHA that's life i guess. whatthehell at least i'm pretty free now.

i wanna train hard and get into finals next year HAHA possible? i dunno but it's worth the try right? they say i must go figure out my passion in life, then i can have a drive and a goal to push to. What if the only thing i really enjoy and feel good for is training and becoming fitter and stronger, it makes me feel good, but does that count? i guess i still need an ambition in life haha. whattheheck.

maybe i'd sort out my thoughts one day. im dead beat, with even more problems tomorrow.
cheers!

2010-04-06T06:38:00.000-07:00

sleep, please?

i can do it i can do it i can be stronger i can be stronger 8)

2010-03-22T06:21:00.001-07:00

y'know, there really used to be a time in my life, where i really honestly and truly believed that i was capable enough such that if i put my mind to something, i would be able to achieve it. And for that time in my life, stuff actually worked out for me, and i was happy and content.

now it seems that no matter how much i try things just somehow dont work out y'know. sometimes they work out and i'm pleased, like maybe my luck's finally turning around, and sometimes i'm just one of them losers not good at anything hahaha.

i must thank friends who stay by me though and like encourage me and tell me it's gonna be alright, but life's like that ba lol sucks man i think my life changed after planning for Farewell Assembly, after that was a downhill slope already yikes.

ah fuck it.

2010-03-05T07:24:00.001-08:00

and every year you decide that life sucks big time.
when do you know it's time to just shut up, sit down and give up?
when you lose everything?

2010-02-04T03:27:00.000-08:00

It's over. Although the closure was really awesome and all, now what?
Life is full of decisions and here and there we all have to make decisions. Hai heck with the decisions man i wish it were all simplier :(

I thought that once it was all over i would feel totally relieved and ready to get along with my life, catch up with friends i haven't been able to hang out with alot because it was always occupying me. But then now i come to realise it somehow has become part of my life already like i cant remember not being busy, not being pushed and stretched, not staying up late to send emails and do proposals, not stressing out. i swear i'm crazy but i think i'd miss it all.

At first i was so eager to get out of it like just can't wait for my term to end and i dunno what i've gotten myself into like zomg was i crazy to apply? What was i trying to proof? It then became a responsibility and then a burden and when i was stressed out i would think of just getting the job done and over with and get my term over and done with so i'll get my life back, to be able to focus on things i want to focus on.

Apart from all the stress and shit to go through, i realised that i could experience love and concern from people i didn't know i could experience love and concern from. I guess it's really through that going thru shit pulls people closer together and whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger. I feel like i'm part of a family now and surprise surprise, that all the values and 'what-did-you-learns' from the teachers were not merely questions to waste time, but could really make you grow. I was skeptical about growth and ability and all but i really got proved wrong this year.

I'll miss the 26ths. :/

i think if 2008 was the fun, no trouble, naive but helluva fun year
then 2009 would be the stress out, pull out hair grow stronger year
and 2010 would be the year i just feel so weird, everything's changing. so scary, like change and time just gets pushed into your face and zoooom it becomes 'hey this is your new class, go make friends and study hard', leaving me o.o

life is crazy. sheesh.

2010-01-19T07:15:00.001-08:00

if i survive the next 2 weeks. i'll treat myself, go crazy, and fly :D
Watch me 8)

omgomgomg 8 days :O

2009-12-30T19:54:00.001-08:00

Responsibility is doing what you need to when you have to make a choice between what you need to and want to. Am i wrong? Guess i'm still not really the most responsible person around but tell me what's the point. What's the point of going through everything.

Last day of 2009. Oh gosh this year was too fast i swear. Everything just happened too too fast and now the holidays are going soon and tmr it'd be a new decade. Heck i'm scared man, scared for all there's too come in the new year.

But today's an amazing day, got to crash after so many days of training and OGL training. I liked the finale haha when everyone was cheering and going crazy and all whee damn awesome seeing this spirit and i really hope Orientation would be a success and wont mess up or anything cause shizz we worked hard.

Anyway every year the holidays are somehow amazing haha like holidays are for making new friends, building relationships, meeting up with people you haven't talked to in a long time, haha! i guess i must thank everyone in my life for making this year quite awesome, even though busy i must say that i've had loads of fun heh :) Thanks to SC friends for supporting me and encouraging me and being there, especially during this period, thanks floorball peeps for being a fun bunch, thanks classmates and cohort-mates for all the nonsense we've done and going through this 2 years together, the hard part and the fun part. Thanks church friends for being there when i need them and being there to have fun and tell me i'm not alone. Thanks all other friends who actually remembered me. and most imptly thanks to special friend for being there all the time and being awesome to hang out with <3 :) Happy last day of 2009 :)

Anytime I need to see your face
I just close my eyes
And I am taken to a place where your crystal mind and
Magenta feelings take up shelter in the base of my spine
Sweet like a drink of cherry cola
I don't need to try to explain;
I just hold on tight
And if it happens again,
I might move so slightly
To the arms and the lips and the face of the human cannonball
That I need to, I want to

Come stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you
When I get to you

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want youI don't know if I need you
But, ooh I would die to find out

I'm the kind of person who endorses a deep commitment
Getting comfy getting perfect is what I live for
But a look, and then a smell of perfume
It's like I'm down on the floor
And I don't know what I'm in for

Conversation has a time and place
In the interaction of a lover and a mate,
But the time of talking, using symbols, using words
Can be likened to a deep sea diver who is swimming with a raincoat

Come stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You'll never know what hit you
When I get to you

Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ooh, I'd die to find out
Ooh, I want youI don't know if I need you
But, ooh I would die to find out

Oooooh yeah, oooh yeah

2009-12-22T18:07:00.001-08:00

oh my gosh, finally a freaking day off :D

2009-12-22T18:07:00.000-08:00

oh my gosh finally a freaking day off :D

2009-12-21T06:55:00.000-08:00

I watched the proverbial sunrise

Coming up over the Pacific and

You might think I'm losing my mind,

But I will shy away from the specifics...

Stop right there.

That's exactly where I lost it.

See that line.

Well I never should have crossed it.

Stop right there.

Well I never should have said

That it's the very moment that

I wish that I could take back.

Now's the point in time where i feel tired but don't feel like sleeping, such a weird feeling really. This has gotta be the shortest Dec hol i've experienced hahaha 1 month liddat only, which kinda fits in with the idea that this year was the crazy year that zoomed past me, like seriously everything happened too fast already i dont remember alot of what happened in early IP2 HAHA CHAOS and like SC invest and all, seems like god knows how long ago HAHA.

Hmm the holidays quite interesting ba just super busy and i'm surprised i havent gotten like a day to just settle back and chill out and take a break for all it's worth, pretty busybusy haha alot of stuff happened ba some stuff i'm quite thankful some stuff i dont wish happened but oh well HAHA

Korea was fun too, i must say :D aside from crazy negative temperatures and chilly winds that make your face hurt and hands feel frozen, and nose keep running, it was quite fun to be in winter haha! then there was jet boating, which is awesomeeeeeeeee :D and skiing HAHA if singapore had winter i'd go ski until i'm actually good at it :X but tt's a far fetched dream hoho!

then there are waffles hahahahhaha if i had a million bucks, i'd probably spend half of it on waffles xD and that fishcake in the msg soup thing damn awesome :X other than those it's pretty much bbq and steamboat everyday but korea's interesting enough. And Grand Hyatt is probably the nicest hotel i've ever stayed in :X hahaha!

This week's christmas week. oh god how time flies :/

2009-12-07T03:57:00.000-08:00

it's nice to have people support you and back you up for something, the feeling's really just awesome hahahaha
yay adhoc :D and piano's the bummer omg :/

2009-12-03T06:53:00.000-08:00

wow the feeling of knowing you suck, sucks.
i wish i possessed some of what you might call, natural talent, it never fails to help.
Haha tough luck baby, better luck next time. lol.

2009-12-02T00:17:00.000-08:00

then you realise that the world probably isn't as nice and perfect it once seemed.
then you start to question everything you once believed and held so strongly to.

2009-12-01T02:25:00.000-08:00

1st december already that's fast haha november's just over like that. It's funny like this year's holidays much much shorter than last year's one. haha and this year i was actually looking for a job, sorta got 1 but didnt really work out very well. mostly me and kai's fault, but stilll...it was fun while it lasted :x
hmm training's mostly at night nowadays too, quite the contrary as last year where it was like 1.5 months of PT before a little court training and school started already. hmm hopefully the team would be stronger this year yeapp.
okayyy continuing would be a basically ranting about my life now lol but life's good life's good (: i'm just thinking about how fast issit before a new year and j1 starts. this year's mad i tell you it's too fast for anyone's good already. hahahaha
and big bang theory rocks :D

peace out :D

2009-11-27T07:16:00.001-08:00

an irrational, weird, magical kind of happy. like in fireflies. hehe (:

2009-11-26T04:55:00.000-08:00

job 1: kai and enan 0
job pwned kai and enan for 2940584720485865930 gold.
HAHAHA at least it was an interesting working experience :x what can i say?
kai's aura to make shit happen + enan's aura to make shit happen = alot of shit happening everytime.
Life's just getting more and more interesting isnt it :x

2009-11-20T06:38:00.000-08:00

Stupid boy, what were you thinking, that you were cut out for it?
How much do you want it?
You gotta earn it, you gotta fight for it :/

So, how much do you want it?

2009-11-16T16:47:00.000-08:00

i guess, that this is where we've come to

I guess this is like officially the end of IP, in a way. Haha after dnd we graduate from IP2 and move on to JC/ IP3 and all but i think it's really like IP's ended, no more classrooms, no more spammage of tiring but fun group projects, no more sitting in the class to talk crap or hang out.
I guess this chapter of my life has closed already ba.
DnD wasnt really the best closure i had hoped for. Actually i dunno what kind of closure i was looking for. Hmm DnD was fun, thanks to the IP1 comm organising it. It was amusing seeing like how all the guys in the suits and making their hair, then all the girls dressing up hahahah cant recognise some ppl can :X I took alot of pictures hahahha not as many as manu tho, i think facebook server's gonna hang with every1 uploading pictures but hell i'll miss those guys, i'll miss my close friends i'll miss the small cohort and bonded kind of feeling.

Haha after DnD we went to walk at Orchard Road, it was like 2am. New experience ba, haha then went to hotel room to watch movie until 1 by 1 everyone knocked-out. hahahah i dunno what to expect but i think it was fun in a way HAHA we shld go book a hotel room or something next time for fun LOL

IP2 changed my perspective in a huge way i guess. back in Ip1 i was like mainly focusing on results and having fun and making more friends and like A lvls was like the bigbig thing. Then in IP2 there was a period where there were so many tests that results didnt seem to matter anymore, surviving and passing would be good enough, then get real and choosing subject combis changed my perspective on life, like i'm forced to look at the big picture and what i wanna do in uni, after uni. When forced to make such decisions it sure makes me feel so darn small, like i'm only 16. And there's a longlonglong way ahead. Haha then there were the books i read, stories nonetheless, but depicting how screwed up and messed up the world is, making me wonder what i'll be when i become an adult, go to work, get a family. It's scary. Haha but i guess IP2 made me mature quite a bit :S

But then again, ip2 for me passed really really quickly, like in a flash, i've already graduated and moving on to another stage of my life. Sorry maybe i'm making a mountain out of a molehole but i tink i've learnt alot.

I wanna thank like all my friends, my classmates, my class guys, ip floorballers, my close friends, friends who've been with me when i needed it most and all. I'll cherish the memories (:
oh well, guess 2 years have just passed me by like that.

I really really liked the time when everyone could just sit in the hotel room and watch a movie and laugh and joke ard and just enjoy ourselves. Guess there wont be such a chance anymore.
Hahahaha thanks for the memories guys, whoever made an impact on this life (:

2009-11-13T04:16:00.000-08:00

tonight felt like the sky just fell. it fell pretty hard.
and there was nothing i could do about it.
i'm sososo sorry hope it's all alright :/

2009-11-12T04:49:00.001-08:00

Living in a world so cold
aim for this holiday: to be stronger and not give up.
thanks for teaching me what strong means (:

2009-11-09T02:23:00.000-08:00

i like to make myself believe
leave my door open just to crash
please take me away from here

Last day me and kai are probably gonna ever go back to that CC in like another 8 months to study. Hahaha it was a nice place, conducive to study, not-that-bad food, noisy aunties who like to scold us, the works :D

And why do hawkers or food people always associate their fried chicken dish to happiness. Like popeyes, now the western stall there. I think i'd barely be happy downing so much fried chicken :x it's just funny LOL and kai owned half a spring chicken, again.

and today's hopefully the last day i'm gonna study chinese hahahahha oh the joy thinking abt it, must pass must pass must pass :X

where'd you want to run to this time? :/

2009-11-07T05:30:00.000-08:00

In open fields of wild flowers, She breathes the air and flies away. She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses. In no simple language, Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all.
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens, As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips. Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him. Someday He'll call her and she will come running. And fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,"I want to fall in love with You"
Sitting silent wearing Sunday best. The sermon echoes through the walls. A great salvation through it calls to the people, Who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls.
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens, As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips, Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him, Someday He'll call us and we will come running, And fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray.

love song for a saviour, beautiful song (:

2009-11-07T03:31:00.001-08:00

and you'll see me waiting for you, on the corner of the street
cause i'm not moving.

Last week was an interesting week i must say. Oh well every week's interesting.
Blogging cause i'm just damn restless from chinese. Baozhangbaodao's are all too long -.- seriously sucks reading many many.
But i'm scared for O lvls :/

But at least i had fun haha!

Lihui's surprise party hahahaha fun much :D

everyone needs compassion, the kind that's never failing,
let mercy fall on me, and everyone needs forgiveness,
the kindness of a saviour, the hope of nations.

2009-11-02T07:05:00.000-08:00

there comes a point in everyone's life where you start to think of life and all relevant stuff. Sometimes, it's better not to keep thinking of life and all relevant stuff.
Stay happy (:

2009-11-01T03:59:00.001-08:00

enan is boredboredbored of chinese and feeling super restless ahhhhh *jumps around*

2009-10-28T05:36:00.001-07:00

enan really really likes his life now (((:
awesomeeee (:

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

2009-10-23T19:23:00.001-07:00

Today i slept longlonglong hahaha happy happy (: i felt like i never slept in a long time oh man sleep's damn good. this week was really tiring i guess, somehow haha training started again, chinese tuition and school chinese work spammage, invigorate.

thank god it's saturday! Today i'm gonna relax wheee (:

2009-10-17T05:53:00.000-07:00

i just realised that the last week has been a magical two way ticket out of my life, go work, go have fun, go home sleep.
then now life comes crashing back in.
so tell me, silly boy, how do you run away from life?

and you know i can't wait to run away (:

2009-10-11T09:20:00.000-07:00

for the days we believed we could fly

hahahaha tell me this is not just a very very very good dream (:
and there's get real tmr.
get real.

2009-10-09T18:16:00.000-07:00

Farewell assembly went alright, thank god it was alright in the end, and i got my 10 hours of sleep, after so long. gosh it felt good.
and it sucks so bad and it's so horrible to know that you messed up with life,but it's damn freaking awesome to know that someone's there to pick you up, say it's alright and just move on and be happy.
my life's just awesome (:

2009-10-08T08:00:00.000-07:00

Another Heart Calls

Do you remember when we didn’t care
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there
Do you remember you at all
Another heart calls

I remember when we stole the night
We’d lie awake dreaming til the sun would wash the sky

Just as soon as I see you
Didn’t I didn’t I tell you

As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

(Chorus)What can I do
Say it’s true
Or everything that matters breaks in two

Say it’s true
I’ll never ask for anyone but you

Talk to me
I’m throwing myself in front of you
This could be the last mistake that I would ever want to do
All I ever do is give
It’s time you see my point of view

(Chorus)Just as soon as I see you
Didn’t I didn’t I tell you
As deep as I need you
You want to leave it all

What can I do
Say it’s true
Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it’s true
I’ll never ask for anyone but you

All you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do to
What can I do
Say It’s true
I’ll never ask for anyone but you

I’m sorry
So what
But you don’t think I’ve said enough

I’m sorry
I don’t care
You were never there

(chorus)Just as soon as I see you
Didn’t I, didn’t I tell you
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do
Say it’s true
Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it’s trueI’ll never ask for anyone but you

All you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do to
What can I do

Say it’s true
I’ll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you

haha awesome song (:
sing it with heart (:

tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow. it's gonna be alright (:

2009-10-07T09:07:00.000-07:00

So what does it feel like, when you have the power to make it or break it.

2009-10-06T08:06:00.001-07:00

collide; it's your choice you choose
and today, enan went home feeling carefree and veryveryvery happy (:
awesome (:

do you remember when we didn't care. do you remember you at all. another heart calls.

2009-10-04T05:23:00.001-07:00

freedom in 2 days. god please let it pass fast.
i can't wait, i swear. ftwftwftw :D

2009-10-03T07:28:00.000-07:00

and now you're questioning, again. i swear i can't wait. just being there again, the thought of it already feels so damn awesome :D

2009-10-02T00:13:00.000-07:00

even the stars refuse to shine
thank.god.it's.friday.
poooh this week's been tiring, needless to say. lol reality seems pretty surreal now like i only remember bits and pieces of the last month lol my whole ip2 life has been dedicated to mugging, it now seems.
but that's all gonna change cause after tues, i'm not gonna use my brains for awhile. stoning is bliss :D

We're almost there.we're almost there.

2009-09-29T07:21:00.000-07:00

and you've got me all wrong, now i'm running and screaming :/
my dad says he would teach me how to relax. he's overseas oh no.
freakozard!

2009-09-28T23:22:00.000-07:00

to the man who was too afraid to fly so he never did land
at least 3 subjects done, gosh most of the unknowns are over, i really really dislike essays, and unknowns. something clicked loose i think, oh damn need to keep it up for 7 more days.
i can do this i can do this i can do this
so, how many pascals are you feeling now?

maybe one day we'll wake up and this would all just be a dream.

2009-09-26T17:21:00.001-07:00

am i the fool, am i the victim,
i'd rather know, you'd rather kiss him,
goodnight, tonight, i'm blinded,
i try, i tried,
is this the way, it ends.

1 more day. i don't even remember what happened the last 2 to 3 weeks gosh.
i've put in so much. screw the result. lets go.

with all emotions set aside, in a whisper, say goodbye.

2009-09-25T15:51:00.000-07:00

another rough night. man what i'd give to just sleep well, and peacefully for one damn night. am i being a fool? what happens now?

2009-09-24T17:25:00.000-07:00

Paper bags and plastic hearts
All our belongings in shopping carts
It's goodbye
But we got one more night

Let's get drunk and drive around
And make peace with an empty town
We can make it right

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

Tonight will change our lives
It's so good to be by your side
We'll cry
We won't give up the fight

We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they'll think its just cause were young
And we'll feel so alive

(:

3 more days.
god let it be over, fast. on the 9 october at 11am, i'm just gonna find a place in school, lie down there and stone. hahaha

2009-09-23T06:12:00.000-07:00

Summary of the past few days

1. take it one day at a time.
2. never NEVER tell yourself that 'it can't possibly get worst than this.'
3. TRY not to get yourself into unnecessary shit
4. it's inevitable in life that you have to walk alone, but it's really nice if there's people to walk with you sometimes.
5. after EOYs, i'd show you all how power is actually a vector.
6. i really like stoning, i just want to stone.

2009-09-19T07:10:00.001-07:00

Have you wanted to be yourself, just 10 times better? :D
HAHAHA today was madness, airport is madness.
kai 1: maxi meal 0. Maxi meal owned HAHA
and coffee served got drugs 1 i think, super long high effect HAHAHA and spasing in the sky train. HAHAHA i feel unstoppable! :D
let's go marathon. booya!

2009-09-16T03:05:00.000-07:00

i don't believe i forgot how to fold the frigging filter paper hahahahah rofl never listen in sec1 chem. But yay at least no practicals for a longlong time. i dont like practical phobia. Today was a loooong day but relatively good so far. thanks to the little things that make life great :)
i shld be studying. poooof.

2009-09-12T09:10:00.000-07:00

It wasn't an awesome start of a day anyhow.
But i like wandering aimlessly in the airport, lol felt like a hobo.
looking at all the departure and arrival lists. I wanna go to christmas island! I heard everyone's happy there, everyone's really nice, no pressure, everyone knows each other, you can survive as a waiter even without any worries.
Next time i'd bring enough money, and hop on the next plane outta here. Anywhere, outta here (:

2009-09-11T08:12:00.000-07:00

Now i realise ______'s right. It isnt about listening and letting the person just spill it out, sometimes its better to just being there to give a shoulder, that's more than enough.
i'm pretty damn sick of bad news over and over and over and feel so effing screwed. but i know i shldnt complain.
Silence might just be golden.
it feels so cold and lonely.
i will get through. i swear i will, somehow. i'll hold up. somehow.
fuck the world

2009-09-09T05:40:00.000-07:00

ok today was a major flop, major screw up and maybe emo day. shit. Sorry welco people who were affected, really sorry i was really messed up. i really really hope that it'd work out this way. pleasepleaseplease :(
guess you guys wont see this anyway.
please frigging goddamn work out :(

2009-09-08T04:33:00.000-07:00

Why do i put myself in these situations, whoa oh

Today i saw my sister watch spongebob squarepants on tv. I popped by to take a look. Patrick is so retarded that he committed a crime and he was trying to find out who was the culprit.
He's so retarded he doesnt have a care in the world.
I wanna be Patrick.

It's just this time of the year again.

2009-09-06T09:11:00.001-07:00

and the happy paper balls are still smiling (:
gogo mugger people! :D

enan no not again.shucks damnit.

2009-09-03T04:11:00.001-07:00

whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger.
whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger.
whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger.
whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger.
whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger.
whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger.
whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger.
whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger.

2009-09-01T00:51:00.000-07:00

and now it just feels like a dream, a pretty good dream nonetheless,
today was awesome. thanks YOU! :) Awesome you! hahaha hope you had fun :D sometime soon again man :D
on the other hand, studying is not awesome hahaha
home feels super damn sian already, blooblah oh the horrors of exams -.-

2009-08-31T03:52:00.000-07:00

to the man who was too afraid to fly that he never did land

today was quite a fun day i shld say hahaha finally met up with pri sch frens, everyone looks so diff! like tucker walked right up to me and said 'hi' i almost jumped. the look change, the voice oso change lol. So the group of us were deciding where to go, tampines there so much food to eat, but must go back to pri sch and eat lunch -.- damn amusing i tell you, exposing stuff about each other :O

tuckers gay! :X
[jingyang]- i think, out of everyone in 6A i change the least, still so crappy and shitty
[tucker]- no what, i think you look more mature, more handsome also
[me and jing] *stun* O.O oh shit he's gay run

thenthen the classrooms got install mic 1 sia HAHA zf was attempting to beatbox :X we all needa practice more :)
oh man i miss primary school, the fun, no stress and the nonsense we do there HAHA

there's the pain of growing up boo!
it's gonna be another loooong night :/

2009-08-30T08:53:00.000-07:00

Watch me flyyyyy!
Today was a happy day :)
At least for once in a heck of a long time i get to end a Sunday right, without feeling screwed cause there's still work undone or a test unstudied for.
yes i shld be mugging, but damnit let me be happy for awhile :)

hi YOU! :D

2009-08-29T00:19:00.001-07:00

HI YOU! :D HAHAHAHAH

2009-08-28T08:12:00.000-07:00

Friday is officially hokkien mee day :) and mad insane but still survivable and a little fun chinese tuition day, it never changes man :X
This week passed exceptionally slowly and painfully i must say, was a veryveryvery weird week, cause like after wednesday, ure suddenly freed from that burden and motivation to start studying for a test next week, aimless, according to smeet. Hahaha, makes sense tho, EOYs are coming tho, i shld be freaking out, too tired.
Like hist option test was jus this week's tuesday, just 3 days ago. omg it doesnt feel like only 3 days have passed, it feels like 2 weeks o.o

life's one crazy roller coaster ride i must say, you don't know what u've got till it gone i guess.
But he's right, what's the point?
what is happening to me man :/ i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry for everything

gonna be a long night.
pooooof

2009-08-25T07:58:00.000-07:00

it is those times, where you look at the night sky, and you're just wishing for that time, when you'll finally be free.
Thank god option's over, it was really interesting to study for but i didnt like the paper hahahaha india studies people? :D and taboo's fun, looking forward to a time when we can all happily, carefreely play it again!
let's be optimistic, optimistic, optimistic! :/ blooblah. here we goooooooooo

2009-08-24T08:12:00.000-07:00

A kingdom built on the sand, oh so fragile,
let's see how strong the sand is.

2009-08-21T03:46:00.000-07:00

Run.
Let's waste time, chasing cars.

It's friday, thank god its friday. This wk's been alright i guess. i survived. haha but there's next week, and the week after that, and the week after that. Life seems amazingly dull now thankyouverymuch.
But there are those little things that make me smile that seem to brighten up my day.
i'm getting more and more used to it, i think.

2009-08-20T04:08:00.000-07:00

i feel so helpless.
my bro's not getting better, my mum's freaking out, and there's nothing i can do about it but pray and hope everything turns out ok and nothing worst can happen.

i guess this year i've gotten a new motto to live by.
'Shit happens, deal with it'

oh god oh god.
i need to punch something
i'm scared.

2009-08-18T09:08:00.000-07:00

if there was a medicine, that could make one a better person over night, hell yeah i'd take it immediately.

2009-08-15T04:26:00.000-07:00

I've tried not to let anyone in until now
I guess conversations never allow
and I've been feeling like I'm on some sort of merry-go-round
And I know, I know, yeah I know, I know

And I've tried not to let anyone in until now
It took time for me to figure it out
and when I feel like I'm complacent with my
head in the clouds
I know, I know, yeah I know, I know

and every time I wonder what's real you make me feel...

You make me feel like a lavender sweater
when I'm caught in bad weather,
In my Volkswagen Jetta
You make me feel like a complete work of art
when I'm just falling apart
A really nice piece of art

Dear God, (art, art, art...)
I hope you hear me (art, art, art...)

And I've tried not to let anyone in until now
Misunderstandings are an easy way out
And I've been feeling all this pressure just to figure it out
And I know, don't know, yeah I know, don't know

And I know that if I just stay strong I can make it
and try harder when I just can't take it (can't take it)
And when everything around me feels so broken and jaded (broken and jaded)

I know, I know, yeah I know, I know
and every time I wonder what's real you make me feel...

You make me feel like a lavender sweater
When I'm caught in bad weather
In my Volkswagen Jetta
You make me feel like a complete work of art
when I'm just falling apart
A really nice piece of art

(art, art, art...)
It's kinda warped, but it's picking up slowly
I don't know, but I can if you'll show me
I guess sometimes it takes more than just fake conversations
to feel like I know that
It's kinda hard when I'm planning for something
to get across this hole without jumping
I guess sometimes it takes more than just false information
to find out who we are

You make me feel like a lavender sweater
when I'm caught in bad weather
In my Volkswagen Jetta
You make me feel like a complete work of art
when I'm just falling apart
A really nice piece of art

'The hill has moved' HAHA i jus suddenly remembered that. looking forward to playing halo after eoys man :X
back to work. this is depressing :S

2009-08-14T20:58:00.000-07:00

And sometimes, it just makes you feel just so small.

It's been yet another weird week to say the least, dunno how i'm still surviving, but its great to have like little stuff here and there that happens that make you just wanna smile and keeps you going :)
Hoho! helllooooo crazy wkend!

2009-08-12T03:34:00.000-07:00

and let the good times roll
so what's strong, and what does strong get you? strong's not me i guess.
i'd like to know why i somehow always do the wrong things
and so how to redeem myself?
bah i'd like to just disappear for awhile.

just keep going, dont stop cause if you do chances are you won't get back up.
a nice long swim would help
i need to go to the breakwaters, throw stones into the sea.

2009-08-11T07:21:00.001-07:00

awesome much (: hoho thanks! :D

2009-08-07T07:56:00.000-07:00

and you make me smile please stay for awhile now

I have awesome friends :)Like where'd u find friends who wait for you for 4 hours to catch a movie?
yay thanks dooods you guys rock :D
and GI Joe was awesome too. Cool weapons man hahaha!

2009-08-06T02:01:00.000-07:00

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Warning to self: dun go get urself into woolala, again, go live your own life and be happy.But well, happiness is relative huh. Sometimes you can have all you could want right there but it still just doesnt feel right. shrug.

This week has been pretty amusing hahaha formation of halogens (-.-), global silence in canteen, getting owned by chinese cher (again), camping out till late, mmao for 'surprise test'. And its already t3w6. scary much!

Hopefully the long weekend would be great :) But bummer there's chinese test tmr -.- what a spoiler, seriously! Nvm ice cream after that to console myself! Ice cream's good for the soul :D

even the stars refuse to shine

2009-08-05T08:06:00.000-07:00

I think i'm going mad. Halo for 3 hours on 2 days. Hanging out until 9.30 at PP.
Yes i'm going mad :X but it was fun at least :D

My new life mission is to kill goat. but cheese and pudding are just as irritating. :D omg fun much.

2009-08-03T07:16:00.000-07:00

let the rain fall down, and wake my dreams,
let it wash away, my sanity,
cause i want to feel the thunder, i want to scream,
let the rain fall down, i'm coming clean.

Let's go back, back to the beginning, back to when the earth, the sun, the stars, all around.
Cause perfect,
i need it to feel just so damn perfect.

Shit happens, deal with it.

2009-08-02T01:55:00.000-07:00

Don't believe everything happiness says
Nothing feels better than hiding these days
We bury our fears in the drinks, in these tears
For the days we believed we could fly

Call up your brothers and sisters and friends
We'll go back to the place where the night never ends
We'll remember the fires, the burning car tires
Boy how in the hell did we get here?

So why don't you meet me, down behind the old school
We'll waste away the weekend, with perfect regard for how
Cavalier we used to be, that beautiful insanity
The apathy's surrounding me
Don't close your eyes or we'll fade away

Over and over and over again
We sat down for a minute, grew up into men
Now we're putting out fires and changing car tires
Man how in hell did we get here?

So why don't you meet me, down behind the old school
We'll waste away the weekend, with perfect regard for how
Cavalier we used to be, that beautiful insanity
The apathy's surrounding me
Don't close your eyes or we'll fade away this time
And we'll never get back what we
Gave away, when we still have that fire in our eyes

Don't believe everything happiness says
Nothings as real as our old reckless ways
When we drink by the fires
The burning car tires
Bad girls and good liars
The dreams we'd conspire
The days we went crazy
The nights wild and hazy
Man how in the hell did we get here?

So why don't you meet me, down behind the old school
We'll waste away the weekend, with perfect regard for how
Cavalier we used to be, that beautiful insanity
The apathy's surrounding me
Don't close your eyes or we'll fade away

Why don't you meet me, down behind the old school
We'll waste away the weekend, with perfect regard for how
Cavalier we used to be, that beautiful insanity
The apathy's surrounding me
Don't close your eyes or we'll fade away

2009-07-31T08:46:00.000-07:00

one day, it'd all be better,
one day, this will all just be over
one day, we can all jus lie there and smile
one day, we can all be happy
just like utopia.
I choose to believe so.
Here we go again, manymanyweeksof_________ (Insert whatever descriptive word to deem fit)
:)
goodnight world.

2009-07-29T17:58:00.000-07:00

I LIKE FEELING ALIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D
ok whatever :X

Blogger finally decided to be not so evil :X
and it sucks being sick, it sucks not being able to do anything, and it sucks being at home while everyone's having fun at school. and i dont like coughing like a frog :( assuming they cough alot.
Ah well i shld count my blessings too i guess :) Thank God its like helmsman week and i dun miss much. rarhh workkkk

and thanks so much all for the well wishes and concerns, it means alot :D
and thanks, especially, for being there when i needed it most at that room in the hospital,scared to death, and not being irritated or pissed off by constant bugging (:

its those times when ure lying in bed in the middle of the night and the moon's high in the sky, with ur restless mind and its just you and you alone. i hate those times.

2009-07-24T09:19:00.000-07:00

just tell me i suck, just tell me i'm not worth it, jus tell me to stop trying.

2009-07-22T02:55:00.001-07:00

and then i crashed into you, and i went up in flames,
could have been the death of me, but then you breathed your breath in me
and then i crashed into you, like a runaway train

:) i realised that if one keep looking at all the giant tasks looming ahead, waiting to consume you, but focus on just what's ahead of you, take it day by day, and look at the good things in life, be your crazy self, do crazy stuff, do fun stuff and not be so tight up about how screwed you're gonna be when you can't complete your work,

life can actually be quite good :) and happy. Haha! So after so long, i have to type a happy post! :D

I must say these few days have not been depressing in any way. i've been touched, feel like being high, feel like saying hi to everyone, feel like going crazy (in a good way :x)
and people look at me and tink im mad, but i'm happy, who cares :X

hahaha ok to prevent other ppl from thinking i'm mad, i shall end my happy post here :x

of course life still sucks here and there. am i jus running away?

LA test over. HOHO time to slack (for a bit la). watching movie. hoha! :D

2009-07-18T20:31:00.000-07:00

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

i dare you to move. or i dare me to move. wth i dont make sense, its jus too messed up now.
damn, i dont even know what to think anymore. just live it day by day i guess. i really really wished i could grow wings and fly away, far away, anywhere but here.
ohwells. This week's gonna be another mad week, got some shock value from last week, not just once, until like woahhh.i don't wanna go back to sch, i really really like my weekends now :X hahaha i'm not making sense :)

On a side note, went to watch Harry Potter with some of the class guys + kim and novia. Hahaha wasnt too impressed i guess. They really should fight more la, how cool sia if i had a magic wand HAHA i'd be having fun playing with it. :x then got tt liquid luck thing, i also want sia! He drink already then go high like on drugs liddat hahaha damn amusing.

and 1 day i'd own that bigbigbig island ;D hoho!

2009-07-17T17:23:00.000-07:00

-with all emotions set aside, in a whisper say goodbye

god i wished i were a saint, then maybe i'd do all the right things in life.

Then again, one cannot build Rome in a day so can you please stop trying so damn hard?

school's nuts. god.everything crumbling right in front of me.

I need my happiness drug/gene :/

Mr Happy cmon do ur stuff :/

maybe tomorrow would be a better day :)

2009-07-15T06:21:00.000-07:00

-and all you wanted...

gosh today was an extremely weird day ok. Lol why do i always experience the anamolies :S first ate something wrong and threw up like free in the toilet jus as LA was finishing, and ms sandhya thought i was aneroxic, or bullenic, take ur pick. Then was feeling miserable, to only get killed by test :) and i came home and decided to run cause i was pekchek. ok let's not talk about the run
-.-
hahaha feel pretty darn tired now. i really shld catch up on sleep :X
School's crazy. i guess the target people wont see this, but gosh i just wanna be left alone. please stop bothering me already omg please jus leave me alone to screw up my own life on my own omg just leaveee meee aloneee.

crazy rantings. Hahaha maybe tomorrow will be better omgggg

she asked, why the world could be so cold.

2009-07-12T02:14:00.000-07:00

Happy 16th Adam Chan HAHAHA not bad birthday fall on a sunday :)
First time i went to a kopitiam to celebrate a guy's bday, not bad something new. So stupid la walk around marina thinking abt wad to eat, walked past sakae, newyork new york, kenny rogers, ended up in going kopitiam. But quite fun we ended up pranking momo, again :X

I dun wanna go back to school! :X like the weekends alotalotalot now :X it's like yeah some people are really becoming crazy. I miss last yr lots :S. i'm becoming such a slacker sheesh. Tell me i shld be doing homework and studying :S

2009-07-11T08:15:00.000-07:00

-i'm my worst enemy, i've given up, i'm sick of feeling, so tell me...

Today i must say, was an interesting day. Hahaha stranded in the rain at a busstop is actually quite fun HAHA but it feels good playing after so long a while. This is the game man :)
Had my sister's bbq to celebrate her 8th bday. It rained, which was so stupid cause i liked the location of the pit and was actually feeling happy and on for a bbq, then it rained. oh wells. Then my cousin tried helping me understand P&C. It is a horrible topic, seriously :X but what to do.

Today i thought alot. I realised i didnt noe what i wanted anymore. Nahmind i just wanna go sleep. Blow the candles out.

2009-07-10T08:08:00.001-07:00

i know i've been/am a selfish bastard. Sorry.
But today, i must insist on putting a smile (:
Because at least today i'm happy (:

2009-07-08T05:36:00.000-07:00

for the days we believed we could fly.
and it was so darn cold.
Today was really a day of mixed feelings :S maybe it's one of those days u walk home thinking about ur life and feeling just screwed up hahaha. Today's soccer was fun i guess, esp 2nd half, but i was really disappointed with myself. I knew that i could continue and push but i gave up cos of some pain. shit wad a loser. Hahaha guess the next time i'd have to prove my worth would be a loooooong time away. But heck i had fun :)

~~sometimes, when nobody really does care, maybe it'd be nice if someone just told me that no one fucking cares. Maybe i'd be better off that way.~~

Sorry. non-sense rantings. oh god.

2009-07-06T04:54:00.000-07:00

Hoho! ahh whoops :X Should have been studied today xD
But omg tiredddddd
:D

2009-07-04T23:42:00.000-07:00

Today the pastor was preaching and suddenly he came to this part. 'Unforgiveness is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die' it's like that cause when you are getting so angry with the other person (or for this case people :/) they do not get bothered about it at all and carry on with their own lives while you eventually get consumed by it.
It's like he nailed me in my face :S sheesh i'll stop. i'll stop pushing just to beat them, to show that i'm not weaker, there's no point is there. ohman hahaha :S

2009-07-03T07:40:00.000-07:00

- where can you run, to escape from yourself,
where'd you gonna go, where'd you gonna go.

Nothing to say i guess. Wanna run,again, sheesh.But what's the point.shiz.
But today was fun at least :) thanks much for the fun :) and yay to surviving in tuition -.-
Thank God it's the weekend, really and a long 1 too. 1st week of school really wasnt that bad but still i think it was pretty slack and continuing into many many weeks to come, hmm let's hope i can remain optimistic :) Hahaha everyday after school has been like holiday, going this and that place, playing this and that haha fun stuff :X

and thanks amy for helping with the blogskin and whatnot haha!

fading out into the light
this could be the real world now
nothing's as real as our old reckless ways, the burning car tyres, the dreams we conspired, the days we went crazy, the nights long and hazy, how in the hell we'd get here.
old school..~~andimbacktoblastingmusic,tryingtonotthinkaboutstufflolwhataloser:/~~

2009-07-02T08:55:00.000-07:00

-21 guns
Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Haha 21 guns is an awesome song, like most of the Transformers songtracks. Hahaha after talking to friend, i guess i realised, mostly unknowingly, that i should be glad those stuff happened, i should be glad that everything's the way it is right now, i should be glad to be in this situation rather than another.
But bah my brain aint functioning properly, dead tired from lessons and then soccer game and then sorting out blazers.
I should really start doing some work at least, but i've been feeling lazy. Damn. I'll get myself to do work soon. Hahaha. But today's soccer game was heck load of fun haha didnt really kick the ball much but guess that's good cause i suck at ball skills. But the running and being a defender, shiok. I needed to run. Maybe it would show me that i'm alive, i can run, i can smile, i can laugh, i'm not making sense HAHA

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day. lessons are killing LOL here we go again.
Nights world (: today i'm happy and decide to talk abt happy stuff (: Cannot arh :P

2009-06-29T06:50:00.000-07:00

We all need pain to show that we're human
actually arh, i think i'd do just fine without the pain, im kinda quite sure i'm human already -.-

Hahaha ok nvm. Today was the first day of school. It felt weird wearing my uniform, feels like pyjamas (and damnit i was figuring out how to spell it, i think it looks weird :X) nahmind.

Mr Lee at 3.05pm 'ok guys you guys are now dismissed'
*yimeng reaches over for a hug.* 'its over enan. we can go home now'
o.O right. day 1 over yay :X it wasnt that bad after all hahaha

and chinese is ________________. insert many many words here :D No offense lol but the thing kinda the overkill i think :S

Sheesh, and blame myself and life for being in this kinda situation lol. i'll live with it.
and i dunno what this post is about. I need to rant hahahaha.

2009-06-28T03:09:00.000-07:00

-What is this life, given to us?
You take me back again,
You showed me life, You've open my eyes,
So i give you my praise, i give you my all,
to the truth that there's no greater love
now in the darkness God's light shines!
Christ forever glorified, so come on come on sing out to God now with all we've got!

City Harvest was an awesome experience. Doubt you guys would see it, but thanks loads for inviting, and being so hospitable and all. It was real cool :D
Made me think of retreat, should really have gone this year then, i need that encounter again.

Haha then a lazy Sunday, lazing around :X cmon sch's tmr i must enjoy the last day as much as possible, no? here's to an awesome~~ly bleak~~ term 3!
Cheers :D

2009-06-26T20:04:00.000-07:00

Today, i went to the doctor's to get some medication to treat my eczema wound on my hand, since it was hurting terribly. (ok it was the first time i wore and mask and felt really really scared but nvm tts not the point)
So, it was my turn and i went in and consulted the doctor.
The doctor said 'ok boy, this is quite bad, but i'll give u this PP wash and some creams to apply...' then proceeded to telling me how to go about using it.
'This is a very very concentrated liquid, put and dilute in room temperature water until it becomes light purple, then use cotton bud and dab on your hand twice a day. Then dry off with cotton bud again and apply the respective creams'
I then thought to myself 'oh okay great maybe this time the medication would work, after all, PP wash sounds, reliable doesnt it?'
then i went home and tried it out. I poured some of the PP wash into a cup. It was a concentrated dark purple liquid. after making a little mess but applying everything and stuff, i realised my fingertips, my wound and my basin were stained dark yellowish brown. it then hit me. PP wash stands for Potassium Permanganate Wash. i didn't know they produced it as medicine. FML.

and gosh, why do i always say the frigging wrong things :/ ohwell haha.

2009-06-26T05:00:00.000-07:00

Project at ym's house hahaha this is like the best pic of the lot i tink, thanks iggy for uploading :X all the unglamness that day! hahahah and the fun :D

-pretending, someone else can come and save me from myself
some reasons to be missed. leaveoutalltherest

i must say, transformers was a great movie, haha a little lengthy but it was nice hahaha awesome cool i wish i owned a cool robot car :X but my favourite phrase from the movie was when sam was shouting at his dad in the war zone

you don't stop you don't fight, you run

and don't ask me why. Haha. and crap holidays are ending.Should have spent more time having fun during this long hols, should have spent more time revising too. Gah nvm i'll feel stressed when the time comes haha.

looks like its gonna be another loooong friday night. :/ ohwell.
tellmeidontcareanymore.whatswrongwithyouenan.

2009-06-25T01:39:00.000-07:00

-no more sad songs
away from the storm. Amazingly, ivan was telling me that the 'away from the storm' was actually into the storm itself. The eye of the storm is the calmest area. coolness :D
ok random post. Hopefully we'd be able to find that peace and calmness amidst the chaos of life, which is gonna get a heck load more chaotic since sch's starting. :) i insist on putting a smile LOL

Gah and today/this week has gotta be the most unproductive day/week of the hols :/ cant bring myself to do any work, it seems that there just isnt the mood. oh man oh man this is not goooood.
and why can't i be born with perfect skin condition. it's starting to hurt pretty darn bad now :/
and i shall stop complaining hahaha

2009-06-24T06:07:00.000-07:00

Today was fun tho HAHA yimeng's house is damndamn cool. Can go diving one :X from 3rd floor down. He can go to the Olympics. And his sister is damn funny. hurray to hist opt grp and cool pond in middle of house and cool camera HAHA. if lihui were there sure more high and nonsense :X iggy better load the pics up faster on facebook.

nahmind hahaha.

2009-06-23T01:01:00.000-07:00

was it something i said, or something i never did, or was i always in the way.

Guess i'd never know huh.

Now it's not gonna be about my strength anymore

enan's gonna start believing.

2009-06-22T08:45:00.000-07:00

Ok i must say today was amazing,didnt expect myself to have sososo much fun, and feel so darn dead tired after that.Awesome :D
The cell people decided to organise a get-together party bbq at Gordon's super big and nice house hahaha so we went over early and played and stuff, super fun. Almost the whole time was spent at the pool, throwing people in and getting pushed in, getting dunk and trying to escape being dunked :X

Polar Bear at the start hahahah adler's a retarded but damn fun game master haha polar bears wanted to kill him first -.-

The nicenice pool plus view of the other condo in the distance hahaha

Dunking :D

Other than this got all the other pics and stuff, plus the bbq. hahaha its really a fml worthy day :X

'today i got carried into the pool by my friends. then just as i went in i got caught by the security. FML.' jokers.

wheeeee must have moremoremore of this kinda outings :D hahaha holidays should be for funfunfun xD

ok super tired and superrrr sleeeeepy man.

back to reality :(

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This has been a real weird week to say the least.
but thanks (: