It's over. Although the closure was really awesome and all, now what? Life is full of decisions and here and there we all have to make decisions. Hai heck with the decisions man i wish it were all simplier :(
I thought that once it was all over i would feel totally relieved and ready to get along with my life, catch up with friends i haven't been able to hang out with alot because it was always occupying me. But then now i come to realise it somehow has become part of my life already like i cant remember not being busy, not being pushed and stretched, not staying up late to send emails and do proposals, not stressing out. i swear i'm crazy but i think i'd miss it all.
At first i was so eager to get out of it like just can't wait for my term to end and i dunno what i've gotten myself into like zomg was i crazy to apply? What was i trying to proof? It then became a responsibility and then a burden and when i was stressed out i would think of just getting the job done and over with and get my term over and done with so i'll get my life back, to be able to focus on things i want to focus on.
Apart from all the stress and shit to go through, i realised that i could experience love and concern from people i didn't know i could experience love and concern from. I guess it's really through that going thru shit pulls people closer together and whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger. I feel like i'm part of a family now and surprise surprise, that all the values and 'what-did-you-learns' from the teachers were not merely questions to waste time, but could really make you grow. I was skeptical about growth and ability and all but i really got proved wrong this year.
I'll miss the 26ths. :/
i think if 2008 was the fun, no trouble, naive but helluva fun year then 2009 would be the stress out, pull out hair grow stronger year and 2010 would be the year i just feel so weird, everything's changing. so scary, like change and time just gets pushed into your face and zoooom it becomes 'hey this is your new class, go make friends and study hard', leaving me o.o
life is crazy. sheesh.
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3:27 AM
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
if i survive the next 2 weeks. i'll treat myself, go crazy, and fly :D Watch me 8)
omgomgomg 8 days :O
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7:15 AM
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Responsibility is doing what you need to when you have to make a choice between what you need to and want to. Am i wrong? Guess i'm still not really the most responsible person around but tell me what's the point. What's the point of going through everything.
Last day of 2009. Oh gosh this year was too fast i swear. Everything just happened too too fast and now the holidays are going soon and tmr it'd be a new decade. Heck i'm scared man, scared for all there's too come in the new year.
But today's an amazing day, got to crash after so many days of training and OGL training. I liked the finale haha when everyone was cheering and going crazy and all whee damn awesome seeing this spirit and i really hope Orientation would be a success and wont mess up or anything cause shizz we worked hard.
Anyway every year the holidays are somehow amazing haha like holidays are for making new friends, building relationships, meeting up with people you haven't talked to in a long time, haha! i guess i must thank everyone in my life for making this year quite awesome, even though busy i must say that i've had loads of fun heh :) Thanks to SC friends for supporting me and encouraging me and being there, especially during this period, thanks floorball peeps for being a fun bunch, thanks classmates and cohort-mates for all the nonsense we've done and going through this 2 years together, the hard part and the fun part. Thanks church friends for being there when i need them and being there to have fun and tell me i'm not alone. Thanks all other friends who actually remembered me. and most imptly thanks to special friend for being there all the time and being awesome to hang out with <3 :) Happy last day of 2009 :)
Anytime I need to see your face I just close my eyes And I am taken to a place where your crystal mind and Magenta feelings take up shelter in the base of my spine Sweet like a drink of cherry cola I don't need to try to explain; I just hold on tight And if it happens again, I might move so slightly To the arms and the lips and the face of the human cannonball That I need to, I want to
Come stand a little bit closer Breathe in and get a bit higher You'll never know what hit you When I get to you
Ooh, I want you I don't know if I need you But, ooh, I'd die to find out Ooh, I want youI don't know if I need you But, ooh I would die to find out
I'm the kind of person who endorses a deep commitment Getting comfy getting perfect is what I live for But a look, and then a smell of perfume It's like I'm down on the floor And I don't know what I'm in for
Conversation has a time and place In the interaction of a lover and a mate, But the time of talking, using symbols, using words Can be likened to a deep sea diver who is swimming with a raincoat
Come stand a little bit closer Breathe in and get a bit higher You'll never know what hit you When I get to you
Ooh, I want you I don't know if I need you But, ooh, I'd die to find out Ooh, I want youI don't know if I need you But, ooh I would die to find out
Oooooh yeah, oooh yeah
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7:54 PM
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
oh my gosh, finally a freaking day off :D
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6:07 PM
oh my gosh finally a freaking day off :D
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6:07 PM
Monday, December 21, 2009
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...
Stop right there.
That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line.
Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there.
Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
Now's the point in time where i feel tired but don't feel like sleeping, such a weird feeling really. This has gotta be the shortest Dec hol i've experienced hahaha 1 month liddat only, which kinda fits in with the idea that this year was the crazy year that zoomed past me, like seriously everything happened too fast already i dont remember alot of what happened in early IP2 HAHA CHAOS and like SC invest and all, seems like god knows how long ago HAHA.
Hmm the holidays quite interesting ba just super busy and i'm surprised i havent gotten like a day to just settle back and chill out and take a break for all it's worth, pretty busybusy haha alot of stuff happened ba some stuff i'm quite thankful some stuff i dont wish happened but oh well HAHA
Korea was fun too, i must say :D aside from crazy negative temperatures and chilly winds that make your face hurt and hands feel frozen, and nose keep running, it was quite fun to be in winter haha! then there was jet boating, which is awesomeeeeeeeee :D and skiing HAHA if singapore had winter i'd go ski until i'm actually good at it :X but tt's a far fetched dream hoho!
then there are waffles hahahahhaha if i had a million bucks, i'd probably spend half of it on waffles xD and that fishcake in the msg soup thing damn awesome :X other than those it's pretty much bbq and steamboat everyday but korea's interesting enough. And Grand Hyatt is probably the nicest hotel i've ever stayed in :X hahaha!
This week's christmas week. oh god how time flies :/
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6:55 AM
Monday, December 7, 2009
it's nice to have people support you and back you up for something, the feeling's really just awesome hahahaha yay adhoc :D and piano's the bummer omg :/
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